Last weekend I visited Towson Universtiy, where I will be attending next year. I hate to say it, but I had a terrible time. I went with two friends from camp (one male, one female) and a friend of theirs. We stayed at my male friends brother's (a senior) apartment. The whole entire time I couldn't help but feel entirely out of place, and that wasn't helped by the fact that we stayed for three fucking nights. It's not to say that I didn't like the people there, I just felt like, in the conditions that I was in that point, I couldn't be myself. To be constricted and have to act differently for that long is excruciatingly awful. Current Mood:
First of all, I was without a computer. I could have always asked to use one of theirs, but I didn't even feel comfortable enough to do that. What would I have done on their computers? I don't really know. Now, for some people, being without a computer is no big deal, not for me. It is my life-line. The best communication tool I have besides my mouth. And it's even rivaling that. I know this won't be a problem next year, but it still sucked now, so I will stand by my complaint about it. I also wasn't able to watch any shows that were on. I spent the entire weekend watching On Demand episodes of Real Time with Bill Maher. This especially bothered me because I knew that when I came home I was going to have a ridiculous amount of stuff to watch and feel annoyed by that. I hate when shows start to pile up.
I also felt like I was losing my weekend to this trip. My weekend is supposed to be a time to relax, and so are vacations, but this didn't seem like that. Instead, this was non-stop running around and hanging out with people who I didn't know but who the people I did know knew (confusing sentence). I felt like it was never my choice to say what we were going to do, and it wouldn't matter if it was, because there was nothing I really wanted to do there. I was ready to leave on the first day after having taken a tour of the campus (which I really liked). As a person, I enjoy having alone time, and here I couldn't have any of that. I was constantly around many people and constantly uncomfortable. I don't normally feel like this, but I guess it was just the lack of familiarity with everyone I was with sans two people. I hope all this will be better come late August. At least I know I'll have my computer and my TV. As for the alone time and people that I know....ehhh.